To me religion is like a crutch people lean on when they can’t figure something out for themselves or is it because they’re too busy doing something else to bother about something they can’t change ? I spend a lot of time wondering why I’m here. I didn’t ask to be here, but I am. What’s all that about?

Found this line somewhere, and it makes lots of sense to me. "Downloading has replaced radio for many of our youth as how they learn about music. Based on why radio is free, so should downloading." But in my opinion it extends to TV too. We have free to air tv here, so I’m not paying for tv anyway (it’s paid for by advertising and out of our taxes). But if I want to download shows, so I get them unedited and for a whole season I should be allowed to. It’s only for personal use, it’s not like I’m running a pirate tv station or charging people for burnt dvd’s of them. (Unlike some dodgy people I know.)

My DSL got shaped too. It’s so nasty, my imap folder couldn’t even update, even with NOTHING else running. I was amazed, but not really because it is iinet and they do suck. EB Games sucks too, or more specifically, their staff are far from helpful on price matching.

Getting really bored with work again. Missed out on applying for another position because I was at the pub, honestly it’s true, and a first. The ad was on an internal only external site, and obviously closed automatically because when I came back on Saturday morning to apply it was gone. You snooze, you lose. I feel like I only seem to lose.

It’s time like these you learn to live again. – Foo Fighters

I was actually feeling quite sick of all the attention after a certain episode recently. Blanket statements like you leave a message on your website and make yourself uncontactable. HELLO? hasn’t anyone ever heard of a time out. Doesn’t anyone ever WANT to get away from it all, to escape, to relax, to be with one’s self. I do, and quite often. It’s when people report you as a missing person, that you start wondering what the fuck is going on with the world. I AM NOT YOUR PET. Am I not allowed free will ? If I choose to go for a drive down south/north/east or where ever, I’m NOT going to ask you for permission, nor should I.

I’m amazed at home many people jump to conclusions over my mental state of mind. I’m not openly suicidal, not in the slightest, well not normally. Surely you’ve noticed I don’t spend hours talking about cutting myself, or chanting along to death metal wanna be type music. Personally I’d rather skip town than kill myself, so out of all of you who for some reason thought I’d offed myself, I think you need to do some deep thinking about yourself and what you know of other people. I’m willing to bet, what you think you know about people might be totally wrong. One thing I’m sure about is I’ve learnt something from this, and in some ways I’m quite disturbed.

On a long enough timeline, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero.